career prospect ??

Have been thinking through and worrying alot on what type of career I should have. Someone says that he don't think that I have been thinking deeply bout it for long. So true. I have only been thinking bout getting a job with high pay.. but not on getting a career with future prospect or about building a career--> Short-sightedness.. I should have thought through it more carefully.

But well, have already accepted the job offered by SGH. However, the position doesn't pays well at all. Heard from many that it is way too low for a graduate with Second upper degree. Totally agree. Most around me gets a high pay of more than 3K even though they may not have a second upper degree. Makes me wonder why I work so hard on the degree for..I have no ambitious to climb higher or take on bigger roles..Well, I guess I am just not ready to take on the responsibilities and stress that comes along with the high pay too. Have always been trying to look for the easiest way out = a routine no-brainer job.

"You are indecisive,immature and childish".. "behaves like a kid." .."you are wasting your time".."you play too much".. "You worry too much..and you lack confidence" Is what I have been hearing alot recently. Makes me ponder what I have been doing these past years... I have been taking up different types of temp jobs since my secondary education..join different types of CCA.. met up with many people.. learnt alot of things..and even achieved the academic qualifications that I desired.. But, It is still not enough.. I have not grown enough...

Made up my mind that during my two years of contract.. I am going to really think thru wat I want and take up the necessary courses to achieve my goals .. Somehow, Often .. I only knows what I don't want.. but uncertain bout wat I really want..have been adopting the "walk one step, see one step" kind of attitude..but I decided not to just move with the flow anymore.. I needa read up more and explore more.. to improve myself.. be it my thinking, the way I present myself, the way I communicate with others..

Need to learn how to stop worrying but to take actual actions to put a stop to my endless worries.. Need to learn to take up more responsibities, bigger roles, and also leadership skills... I don't want to be trapped at the same level forever... I am starting to feel the need to climb higher.. and put aside my likes and dislikes.. I need to be more assertive... knock out my fickleminded genes~ and be more decisive.. and start taking charge of my life...


XT! GROW UP!


A song tat expresses my feeling for now..







敲敲我的头 词／曲∶刘伟仁
敲敲敲敲我的头
敲敲敲敲我的头
看看它是不是有用
最近二十个年头
到底做了什么
你快告诉我
敲敲敲敲我的头
敲敲敲敲我的头
看看有没有进步很多
一个不小心
掉进生活的漩涡
全部都搞错
敲敲敲敲他的头
敲敲敲敲他的头
看看它打算活多久
高兴就好好的过
不高兴就闪躲
就是这种念头
其实我很想飞
可是找不到一片天
我想喝一杯
只是我没有没有胆量醉
其实我真的美
为什么没有人发现
我好像找人陪
连人都看不见　连人都看不见
(music)
他们摸摸他的头
他们摸摸他的头 问它会不会难过
高兴就好好的过
不高兴就闪躲
你还在乎什么
其实我很想飞
可是找不到一片天
我想喝一杯
只是我没有没有胆量醉
其实我真的美
为什么没有人发现
我好像找人陪
连人都看不见
连人都看不见
(敲敲敲敲我的头)你敲敲我的头
(敲敲敲敲我的头　看看它是不是有用)啊．．．
(如果没有用　我还能做什么
你快告诉我)我还能做什么　你快告诉我
(敲敲敲敲他的头)你敲敲他的头
(敲敲敲敲他的头　看看我的头会不会痛)
喔　我真的很痛
(他打了我的头　我敲了你的头)我敲了你的头
(反正都是头)反正都是头　丫头





taking another detour in my life..